My favourite soup is

Borsch (or Borscht).  Where to buy the best Borsch?  The answer must be Tin Ma Fastfood天馬快餐 in Oi Man Estate, Kowloon., Hong Kong

Website for WORLD'S BEST BORSCH:  http://www.ukraineorphans.net/id33.html

Anyone can paint

I want to learn something that I can enjoy and be benefited throughout my whole life...and I hope painiting can be it! 
Just read an article entitled 'Anyone can be Rembrandt', I strongly agree with what Damien Hirst said, "It's about freedom and guts. It's about looking. It can be learned. That's the great thing about art. Anybody can do it if you just believe. With practice, you can make great paintings."  It's encouraging to a fresh learner like me!

article source:http://www.guardian.co.uk/artanddesign/2009/nov/14/damien-hirst-interview

Work hard but smart!

I'm very happy...I need to work efficiently so that I can finish all my assignment this month!

人生目標

樂在其中，樂此不疲

nice happy gathering

I'm glad today because I could see my old friends again.  Asta, Clara, Alison, Mrs Wong, Pui Yu, Yan Yan, Man...We had a small group gathering at Clara's home.  We sang songs and priased the Lord.  We also read the Bible and prayed.  It's been such a long time that I haven't prayed with so many old friends.  Thank God for the reunion we had today.  We read Psalm 39 and Rome 3...God is our hope...What we've shared are inspirational.  The difference between 本份&過份, God will lead us to know HIM, of course including our family...

my recent life

Besides taking my MA course, I'm learning Putonghua with honey every Saturady night.  Actually, he works harder than me and I can see that he really takes it quite serious.  He practises all the time and would log on to the Internet for useful PTH websites for further practice.  I guess he has very positive influence on me in learning PTH.

I think oil painting is really new to me.  Anyway, I would spend more time and learn to enjoy it.

Ping pong has always been my favourite.  Mr Wong is actually a very nice, experienced teacher.  However, I would miss the ball whenever he praises me!

Feeling better now

Dear Lord

Thank YOU. I feel better now. I cried over things that have made me feel broken-hearted, but it's almost over now. I know YOU are looking after me well.

Lord, when will I be healthy enough and get pregnant again? I feel that I'm getting more ready for that now. I also want to become fitter before I am pregnant. Please help me to get rid of my laziness:>

I love YOU:D

gali

tiny little things I like...

Let me list all the things I can think of that I really like...

1. watching different tones, shapes and layers of green trees in the wild
2. sitting on the roof of Ka-chun doing nothing but watching the moon
3. peeking onto the street to see what people are doing
4. baking mussels in froiled paper with garlic
5. sharing cakes of different tastes with my friends
6. playing ping-pong with my family
7. playing badminton with LYF
8. bathing in jacuzzi of my club house
9. chatting with friends
10. swimming with my bro and sis
11. touching lok-lok's black face
12. with my head lying on honey's dummy
13. visiting the Sai Kung pier
14. Honey holding my hands tightly
15. tasting a skew of fishballs at Sai Kung pier
16. sitting on the bank of River Seine
17. the funny facial expression of my little sis
18. the silly jokes of my dad
19. the sour fish soup of mom
20. the sushi made by ka-chun
21. the soup made by Grace's mom
22. the sound of water inside my pillow
23. the scent after the clothes are washed
24. playing pseudo-piano with my fingers
25. the smile of honey husband
26. the jokes and jargons of my dad
27. all smiling faces
28. lying on the new sofa while listening to songs + looking out of the balcony
29. slowing myself and watching kids troddle
30. riding the bicycle chasing after the moon...

It's late at night now, let's go to sleep!
Goodnight my dear gali:)

Happy Birthday Week

I have a very happy birthday week:D

Last Sunday, whole family gathered in the new flat of ka-chun and had hot hot bbq at the roof! Interesting, we all sweated and ate the burnt food under 32C!!! What I cannot forget is the delicious cake my bro bought me. They sang me birthday song and I just felt like the happiest person on earth. Thank you family, especially my bro and thank YOU.

Last night, I had dinner with SM at Amoy Garden. We ate Shanghainese food. We had 3C noodles, bamboo shoots, jelly fish heads, rice noodles with chicken, vegetarian dumplings and soya milk. Hm...the food is just fine but the chat is excellent! I always feel like being myself in front of SM. It's just comfortable to be with her and I love such a friend! Then, we went to St. honour to pick assorted cakes. I picked three different tastes and she picked one coffee cheesecake for her beloved Kelvin. After that, we went upstairs to her flat and enjoyed the wedding photos with Grace who joined us later. And then it came the most precious moment, singing birthday song and cutting cakes. Wow, simple things make me so happy! Of course, Grace also bought me a cake though I forgot to take it away! So did SM...she also bought me a present and a card and the dinner! Again, thank you my dear friends and thank YOU!

What do I enjoy doing most?

Gali, what do you really enjoy doing?

When I return to heaven, I believe God must ask me 2 questions:
1. Did yo make yourself happy on earth?
2. Did you make the people around you happy?

I would definitely feel guilty in answering question 1! I didn't or I haven't...yet! Not that I don't want to, but I don't know how or I should say I feel impotent to do so. Lord father, please help me. I feel frustrated. I seem like doing things in vain. I'm sick of feeling in this way. Where can I start? What should I start with?

The question: What do I really enjoy doing now? (No idea!!!)

Thinking about my childhood favourites...wow, I enjoy running around, finding friends to play and talk with. I love roller-skating, cycling chasing after the moon. Catching grasshoppers and climbing the trees. Doing the acrobatic things. I miss those good old days so much!!!

Session 3: Beat it with Self-talk

Just a bit tongue-tied today and could hardly express what I really want. Anyway, the message that I got today is to have self-talk whenever abusive horrible scenes come to my mind. I have to conquer and say what is right to mom in mind to justify her wrongs! Ok, I'll try!

Say what is right and that's it!
I've been good enough to mom and it's done!

Dr Chan has also reminded the importance of learning to live properly like a man!

Oh, my mussels

I really miss the delicious mussels I ate more than a decade ago. It's Chez de Leon on Champ Elysee. I wish I could taste them now! Just send me one pot and that'll be good enough! (Of course, more is better:))

Apart from the vision of mussels in my head, I had a wonderful day today. We finished our presentation with success and Prof Fok recognised our effort by prasing us that we are clever in applying different frameworks to different issues. Bravo! Thank God that all members are nice and kind. You know that I really have had bad experiences in working with "group members", actually that means ME working most of the time! We had lunches and we talked, discussed, shared and laughed. We all enjoy working with one another. I especially appreciate Carly's skills in using the ppt. We just had a great time! I feel very happy today!

Stand Firm at Times of Difficulties

It's really a difficult time for me and honey to cope with. The medicines seem not be able to help honey. I can feel that he's really depressed. Something must have happened but he just wouldn't tell maybe because of face problems.

At such times, I tend to grasp things and people around hoping that they can save us. But the fact is that we are ALL fragile with our own difficulties. The passage I read just now tells me to stand firm:

"The best thing I can do is to stand firm and listen for the Lord’s voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out … they know his voice...Take the time to comfortably lie at the feet of your master, waiting for His instruction. It is often heard in our silence and spoken by a small still voice."

Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still (Exodus 14:13).

13 Moses spoke to the people: "Don't be afraid. Stand firm and watch God do his work of salvation for you today. Take a good look at the Egyptians today for you're never going to see them again. 14 God will fight the battle for you. And you? You keep your mouths shut!" (The Message)

The author called Cliff Young said we can learn a lot from a dog’s loyalty, trustworthiness, and faithfulness to his master. (I hope my Lok-lok is like that!) It all starts by learning to stay, sit, and stand firm.

OK, I'll learn to stand firm and wait.

Session 2: Recognition of My Hurts

Last Friday, I went to see Dr Chan right after my lunch with Clara, Yan and Asta. He asked me how I had felt in the past few days. Well, the feelings are awkward. I can feel my eyes are enlarged outside but very tired inside. Sometimes, I feel scared and my head is stuck and can hardly think.

When he asked about how I feel about mom, I felt like I was about to cry. Tears almost fell down! He said that now that I am an adult, I can be free from her influence. I can fly high and pursue my own life. But the only thing is that I have to recognise all the hurts caused by mom. It's vague. I just don't know how. He said that it's unhealthy to be stuck in the middle of anger, guilt and forgiveness. I can forgive her but it doesn't mean that she hasn't done anything wrong to me. I have to admit that she DOES hurt me. I just feel very tired when thinking about all these past horrible scenes. Dear Lord, can YOU help me find a way out? He spent quite a long time talking with me and told me to come back with answers next time...he said I need to find a fulcrum to help me vent my feelings. (Either honey or him!!!)

When I came out, I saw a long queue waiting! I did feel better after talking to him because I don't have to pretend to be strong anymore. I can just be myself inside the room.

I AM WHO I AM

Gali, who are you?
*************************
+
caring
creative
delicious cooking
eager to help
eager to listen
funny
gentle
good sweet voice
have empathy
humourous
kind-hearted
meek
pursuit of righteousness
sympathetic
tender
with intergrity
witty-minded

-
always unhappy
don't know how to love myself
lazy to do exercise
low self-esteem
pursuit of perfectness
too responsible
too serious about life

Session 1:Rainbow

Yeah, I went to Dr Chan finally today!

He told me that I have depression. As I expected. He told me not to think of my babies as babies. They didn't have nerves and feelings yet! They were just embryos. We just did the same thing like many other parents did. We all don't want them to suffer more. I told him that I've realized my feelings of hating to see babies and to hear pregnancy recently. They are getting stronger...I just hate them! The feeling of jealousy seems overwhelming as well!

Honey and I then went to a vegetarian take-away store(三得素食) to buy something good to eat. After that, we went uptairs to Commercial Book Stores to buy books. I bought one about how to keep pores fine and clean. We also bought the 3M Electric Desktop Paper shredder. Though it's a bit slow and it has limitation, it's still better than the manual one. Lastly, we went home by taxi. On the way home, near Hung Hom, I saw a huge rainbow hanging across the sky for a few seconds. Wow, it's beautiful! as the taxi moved forward, we lost the track of it. It's been such a long time taht I haven't see one, a huge one like this. I remember I used to see one after rain at my childhood home in Homantin. Actually, I know that the one I saw today started at Homantin and ended in Hung Hom.

The RAINBOW is just a sign of hope to me. It matters a lot to me. Thank YOU!

photo taken from: http://www.flickr.com/photos/kishimi/994691714/

Sound of Cicadas

I should start to learn how to heal and love myself with the strength from God.

Step 1: Appreciate the beauty of the world around me.

It has been such a long time that I haven't stopped to enjoy the orchestra played by cicadas. I still remember I used to have fun with my neighbours to catch cicadas in summer when I was in primary school. As we were surrounded by nature, a rare living place existed in urban Kowloon area, it's a common phenomenon to see them resting on trees. When we were able to catch them, we would tie a thread on their legs and let them fly, in the end, the funniest part would be we flew cicadas instead of kites. We were all cold-blooded and crazy when we were small. It's a kind of monstrous game. Of course the destiny of these little creatures would be fatal!

This morning, I just stopped in the middle of the road leading to KCR University Station and enjoyed the sound of nature. Wow, the sound is loud and clear. It's just the same one I heard 2X years ago!

Swimming class 1

Yesterday I had my first swimming class with my younger brother and sister at Metro City. I just love it. I love to spend time with them. Actually, I can see we have things in common. We have blood loaded with humour and fun. we all love to play!

Well, my swimming skills are ok to teach them. I just hope that honey can recover very soon and join us for th swimming class. He will be a better coach!

I also hope that my younger brother can learn to relax more and practise maybe a thousand times just to learn how to float! He should have the mindset to think in this way, "If I think I can, I can!" I know it really is a big challenge to him. But he'll just have to make great effort to overcome it! My younger sister is quite good. I always think that she is lovely and talented. Provided that she is hard-working for the practice, all she needs to do is to graspe the correct skills and she will be able to swim well.

Maybe next Monday, we should invite mom and dad as well. I should also go there earlier so that we can have more time to play! Good ideas!

Am I leading a happy life today?

腓 立 比 書 4 (Chinese Union Version (Traditional))

6 應 當 一 無 罣 慮 ， 只 要 凡 事 藉 著 禱 告 、 祈 求 ， 和 感 謝 ， 將 你 們 所 要 的 告 訴 神 。

7 神 所 賜 、 出 人 意 外 的 平 安 必 在 基 督 耶 穌 裡 保 守 你 們 的 心 懷 意 念 。

Philippians 4 (The Message)

6-7Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Philippians 4 (New International Version)

6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Think:

1. Reread Philippians 4:6,7. What is the result of not being anxious, but presenting our requests to God through prayer and petition with thanksgiving?

2. Sometimes we are anxious about life because we are sitting around thinking about it. What specifically can you do today to live life to the fullest? Do it today!

My feelings and thoughts:

Well, I just find that my life is still in a mess, better say it is still under God's construction. Yeah, it's always a mess in a construction site before the building is completed. Foundation is important and it takes time.

I know that worrying is not good and it's just my habit of worrying things like my family, my future, my life, honey's health...I pray. I do pray, but am I praying in a wrong way? I do tell my worries and wishes to God, sometimes I thank God, but I still worry. Oh, Lord, please heal me and teach me how to do it? How to do with faith and trust? I need you so much.

Maybe the cure is to live one day well. Don't think about much of tomorrow. What can I do today to make my life to the fullest? Let me think...Well, I'm going to CU today for the first class of the summer intensive course. I'll try to be witty-minded but diligent of course to fulfil the course requirement but don't place too much pressure on myself! Just try my best, ok? Then, I'll look at the sofas in the afternoon and go to MK to look for The Message. After that, go for a swim and prepare for dinner. That's it!

gali, you r not bad.

This is what Asta said on Wednesday night. "You are not bad, actually, you are quite good!...Why do you always look down on yourself? Don't empower the influence of your mom and dad's negativeness on you, you have choice and power to control and ignore them."

To be frank, everytime we met, I felt panicked because I always thought that I was the same, no self-growth. But everytime Asta would have something new and improvement made in her life.I just envied. The old Asta would just despise my staying-the-same situation!

Nevertheless, the chat we had that night was wonderful. I've started to see the real Asta that we are the same, fragile and need love and healing. It is the first time I've ever felt that we are close enough to share. I see changes in her, me of course! I see a brand new Asta. Yeah, It was bravo to see that Asta did listen and understand my feelings. I just felt like crying at that time! (I did cry a bit!)

Her words of encouragement and understanding have empowered me a lot. Thank God for everything. May God bless our families with abundant love and peace from YOU. Amen.

Don't Assume You Know It All

The Message--Proverbs 3

5-6
Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don't try to figure out everything on your own.

Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track.

NIV-Proverbs 3

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. [a]

Lord, thanks for reminding! I love you(at least learning to!)

the congi is HYPERACTIVE

What an irritating noise! I just can bear no more and went uptairs to express my anger just now! The man living upstairs is called Mr Au. Can you imagine? He has 2 dogs playing upstairs every day that I always hear their steps running back and forth the house. The noise is around the clock and if this continues, I'm going to be crazy!!! Honey and I have not been sleeping well for a long time!

Of course, though I'm angry, I'm still under good control. I told him how annoying it is to hear all the noise and hope he can do something. Of course I understand what dog lovers think, but he must do something to reduce the negative influence his dogs caused to his neighbours. Or else, this is called selfish!

Oh, what should we do except moving out? God, please help!

Gold Coast

Wow, yesterday morning, honey booked a delux room with seaview at Gold Coast Hotel in Tuen Mun and my impression towards Tuen Mun has changed totally.

It's an inevitable fact that both honey and I are too serious in life, we don't know how to play and relax. But frankly, we'd love to learn. It's a good start yesterday bcause honey took the initiative to make ourselves a relaxing holiday. We didn't join the 7.1 parade. We supported it deep in our hearts. Instead, we stayed in the hotel and tried to enjoy everything.

The room is big and has a stunning view and a giant balcony. Wow, when you step out on the balcony, you see a vast blue sky and beautiful sea. We saw planes flying over Lantau as well. It;s so comfortable. Sky in Kowloon is limited and blocked!!! I hate that! It has been such a long time that i really enjoy and relax. Thank God and I love you honeycheung. Thanks for the arrangement. We also went to the swimming pool and had a swim there. Of course honey could not swim at the moment, but it's cool to stay in the water and had sunbathing. I just wonder, why do we have to fly such a long way to Samui Island when you can find one in Hong Kong. Of course, the food in Thailand is cheaper. But when honey needs enough rest before heading for any journey abroad, Gold Coast is a wonderful choice.

This morning, I woke up quite early at 8.30. I just wanted to stroll around the area. Though I'd love to walk to the Gold Dolphin Square, I didn't because it's too far away under the bright, hot sun. Anyway, I went back to the shopping mall we visited last night. When I arrived, I saw something wonderful. It was a fish jumping out of the water again and again. It's just like flying. Wow!!! It's amazing! What a lovely scene. Then, a man, looks like a Pakistan, came to me and asked me what time it was. I told him the time in English and he spoke in his own langauge that I don't know. However, it seemed that I could understand him, I showed him my mobile phone clock. He's happy and went back to the bench chair to enjoy the morning sun. Later, he shouted and signalled me to sit beside him. I just smiled back and moving my head to tell me that no need. (Though he's friendly, it's still dangerous in sit beside somebody who is a total stranger to you when there's nobody around.) Everything seems so tranquil. Thank God for your creation. I've just found that Tuen Mun is not a bad place. Gold Coast is bravo! Then, I went to Cha Chan Tang and 7-11 to buy honey his favouite breakfast and newspapers respectively. I walked back to the hotel with a happy heart after that.

Hm...what a nice holiday!

My childhood

I just cried when I heard this song...

Childhood--Michael Jackson

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth

Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood...



It's a touching song. Lucky that I viewed the 60 mins on youtube and found that MJ wrote this song that reflects the very bottom feelings of his heart. He's such a poor kid who yearns for love. The DJ's right. He's home now. He's now in the arms of Jesus who will compensate what he didn't have on earth: parental love, acceptance and respect from the media. He must be very tired and exhausted. God, may you love him and let him have peace in your love...Amen.

Lucky that I have a happy childhood. I still have lots of happy memories to taste. Thank God that ka chun can share most with me.

MJ has such a beautiful, "childlike", angel voice. Would it be a gift from God to compensate him for the lost of his childhood?

I hate you

快樂往往不是來自擁有得多,而是計較得少.
Happiness is not to own a lot but do not haggle over too much.

你當倚靠耶和華而行善, 住在地上, 以他的信實為糧. 詩37:7
Trust in Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Psalms 37:3

Clara recently has started to send me scripts every day...The verse I received today is reminding me something. Yeah, I'm an unhappy person for too many years since 13 years old. I want to stop and be a happy person, I just don't know how. Whenever I think of mom & dad, I panick and feel worried. When I look at my younger bro and sis, I can feel the weigh on my shoulders. They have to grow up, be practical, independant and responsible for their own lives. So do I. I have to let go. There is no point in wasting time in being depressed. Do I choose it? I just feel that I am losing hope and energy in life.

Today, I felt nervous to meet Grace again coz I didn't want to mention about all the unhappy things happened in the past few months. The most painful fact is that I seem to learn nothing?! I haven't grown up at all. Health seems to deterioate, husband's lumbar problem, staying in hospital for weeks, helping husband to ease the pain by massages though I feel tired sometimes, losing my baby again...Grace seems to gain a lot. I really envy! I'm tired of everything. I don't want to pray and don't know how to pray...I'm tired of hearing Grace mention about how God gives her answers, how grateful she is in life...I start to feel sick of it! I just don't want to meet her anymore. I feel like crying today the feeling of helplssness comes back and I realize I have no one to talk to. I feel very lonely. I have talked to YOU, but so what!

But I'm contradicting. I know I have nothing if I leave YOU, I know I'm weak now. What should I do??? It's frustrating to think about what I should do in the future. I have no confidence and direction at all. It seems to me that I have no more mission in teaching. I really hate that! I'm tired of being ill-treated by this profession. I hate Coconut. I worked so hard to be a good, responsible teacher but she always find faults and play office politics on nice teachers. I hate the NP2C principal, she told lies and made me a supply teacher and lose the providant fund. She made use of me to take up another class so that she could save money for hiring a supply teacher. She burnt me out for teaching 3 full classes English, drama and geography. I hate myself for not knowing how to confront with people. I hate principal Cheng for trusting students instead of recognising my effort made there. I hate myself for losing confidence in teaching that F.3 class. I hate Mrs Leung for pushing me to teach 3B that year and I was burn-out because of all these! I hate my mom for her torturing us mentally, emotionally and physically. I hate my dad for being cowardice in protecting himself and us and spoiling mom. I HATE all these DAMN things!!!I hate myself for losing hope in life...

5 people you meet in heaven

Last night, I watched "Five People You Meet in Heaven" with honey husband. Actually, when I tried to find the book, I've discovered that it was bought in October, 2004. I remember I was working at NP2C at that time and only finished reading the first chapter. After that, this book was put right away.

It's really a nice, inspiring film. I think I prefer watching films to reading, most of the time. I quite enjoy the visual stimulation and presentation of the book. (Maybe I am lazy to have the imagery in my mind!) And I wonder who I will meet in heaven. I told HH that I will meet I a little bird that I killed when I was very small. I felt guilty of it. I tried to take it for a bath and drown it. How evil I was! Little bird, I am sorry!

Just like what the Bible mentions, you will bring the unfinished business to heaven. If the heaven is like what is being shown in the film, that's quite nice. The five people will help you figure out the question marks in life and untangle your mess, frustrations and worries in life and finally, you will be set free as a bird (maybe a Fung Wang) and go back to Lord father with love.

My Favourite Quotations:

• "We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
• "All the people you meet here have one thing to teach you." Eddie was skeptical. His fists stayed clenched. "What?" he said. "That there are no random acts. That we are all connected. That you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind."
• "Fairness doesn't govern life and death. For if it did, no good man would ever die young."
• "It is because the spirit knows deep down that all lives intersect. That death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else. And in that small distance, lives are changed."
  "One withers, another grows."
• "Each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one."
• "Strangers," the Blue Man said,"are just family you have yet to come to know."
• "No life is a waste," the Blue Man said. "The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone."
• "All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped."
• "That's what heaven is. You get to make sense of your yesterdays."

This poem is forwarded by Clara...a thought-provoking one:>

This is a poem written by a teenager with cancer.She wants to see how many people get her poem. It is quite the poem Please pass it on.This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital .It was sent bya medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement AFTER THE POEM.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down..
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask
How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

FORWARDED E-MAILS ARE TRACKED TO OBTAIN THE TOTAL COUNT.
Dear All:
PLEASE pass this mail on to everyone you know - even to those you don't know!
It is the request of a special girl who will soon leave this world due to cancer.This young girl has 6 months left to live, and as her dying wish, she wanted to send a letter telling everyone to live their life to the fullest, since she never will. She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high school, or get married and have a family of her own.By you sending this to as many people as possible, you can give her and her family a little hope, because with every name that this is sent to, The American Cancer Society will donate 3 cents per name to her treatment and recovery plan. One guy sent this to 500 people! So I know that we can at least send it to 5 or 6. It'snot even your money, just your time!
PLEASE PASS ON AS A LAST REQUEST.
Dr. Dennis Shields, ProfessorDepartment of Developmental and Molecular Biology1300 Morris Park AvenueBronx , New Yor k 10461

The lesson of trust...

Dear Lord
I know you want me to learn the lesson of faith...okay, I'll trust in YOU and Dr Yip and I know in times honey husband will get healed. I trust YOU because YOU are a healing God:)
galilamlam
P.S. Please also teach me how to trust, thank YOU!

Thank YOU...

Dear Lord
Thank YOU for listening! Thank YOU for all the angels YOU sent to Johnny and me. Thank YOU for letting us know Dr. R. Yip. Thank YOU for arranging Johnny such a big room to rest well. Please continue to protect us and deliver us from evil. Amen.
Galilamlam

heal me Oh Lord...

Heal me oh Lord and I will be healed
save me and I will be saved
heal me oh Lord and I'll be healed
for YOU are the one I pray
YOU are the one I pray
God said in his word that HE is a god who would heal us, HE is a healing god
But I know you might have a question about why this person or that person doesn't get healed
I have questions
but that doesn't change the fact that God said HE is a healing god
And God and his word are one that
no one here would doubt that God came into this room and touch you would heal
same thing can happen if his word touches you
HIS power is in HIS words
HIS power to heal in HIS words
HIS power to save in HIS words
HIS power to deliver you from that hopeless situation
Let's put HIS words on our lips
and sing it back to HIM tonight
Heal me Oh Lord and I will be healed
save me and I'll be saved
Oh heal me oh Lord and I will be healed for YOU are the one I pray
YOU are the one I pray
YOU are the one I pray
we prasie you
we prasie you Lord Jesus
that your healing power is flown in every person
Let it flow like rivers
his power to heal in his word
Amen

God will make a way...

HE works in way we cannot see
HE will be my guide hold me closely to HIS side
HE hasn't forgot my situation because my name is inscribed in HIS palm
with love and strength for each new day
HE will make a way...

Lord father

I'm worried about my husband, he's admitting to the hospital and having surgery...GOD, please heal Johnny and protect HIM from any harm. Please show HIM your mercy and grace, grant him peace in heart. Thank you LORD.

I'm worried about my sister when sometimes she doesn't answer the phone call..I would immediately think that it is her boyfriend who makes her feel unhappy and crazy...Maybe I care about her so much that sometimes I would overact. I don't know what to do. Where should I stand? When should I interfere? To what extent should I help her? Can YOU tell me?
I'm worried about mom, dad n little brother. I think mom is evil in the way that she always gamble because she feels lonely and lost. She blames the whole world for causing her such feelings and situations. She scolds and hits. She curses and hates. When she loses in her gambling, she would force dad n little brother even harder to work days and nights. She would force little brother to give her more money for gambling, if not, she would hit dad as her punchbag instead.

I'm worried about my future...when will I be bounced back and recover? I want to resume work but not sure if I can be a teacher anymore...I want to have a house, a car...so that my family can live in it happily and harmoniously...so that I can take them anywhere they like to have family days...

I'm so afraid to think about being a mother now...so just don't think about it...

Anyway, I will put my trust in YOU knowing that YOU will set us free...

I will sing and I will praise because YOU are worth-prasing even in my darkest hours through the sorrow and the pain...because your word is true!

i feel depressed...

I feel like crying when facing so many things that seem not to be able to be solved or find a way out...What are they?

• I don't want to see my husband get depressed due to his lumbar pain. I want to see him happy and recovered.
• I don't want to please my mom anymore because i am really getting tired to do so...It is disgusting to see her repeated destructive, obssessive behaviour...I want to see her get healed.
• I also feel disgusted to know about the things that dad has done, don't know whether it's the cause or the result of mom's continuous tortorous behaviour. Can there be a way out? Our family needs saviour and light of hope.
• I also feel sick of it to see my sis waste time on the destructive relationship she has...She doesn't love herslf at all, she doesn't respect her own feelings and the crying deep inside her heart either.
• I feel painful in heart to see all those poor people suffer from the lost of their family members in the 5.12 earthquake. It's not totally natural disaster...
• I feel angry to read/watch the news about the finalised, actual death polls of students in the earthquake released by those "officers without conscience"...how would jesus feel? Would he feel the same way as mine, too? What would jesus do?
• I feel broken-hearted to see those moms/dads crying for justice for their lost children...Can those who dominate also dominate real justice? Can justice be dominated?
• I feel guilty to sit comfortably on the couch reading about all these news especially the ones about the massacre 20 years ago!
• Sometimes, I feel lost about my belief because many things happened cannot be justified or rationalized! It seems that the belief my brothers have can help them to get released about the unknown miseries happened in life! Is that true? Shouldn't the belief I have the ultimate one that can console us most or it is just because of my limited knowledge or ignorance towards it?
• I feel that the heart of my motherland is boiled with anger from injustice, deceit, selfishness, unfairness...all these will explose in time...just like Dante's Peak!
• I feel that my heart is aching with tears...things are falling apart but I don't want to fall apart! Can YOU help?
• I feel weak and impotent to see the reality...
• I feel like crying...

Brain

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How tiny I am?!

Why so unhappy with troubles on earth?

To my family:)

Please empower me...

When I was small, there was an exciting comics called Heman. When he wanted to beat the bad guys down, he would seek power by saying, "Skull Castle, please grant me power! 請骷髏頭堡賜我力量！"

I really need power now, please empower me, GOD!

*picture taken from: http://www.comicsbulletin.com/news/images/0304/heman.jpg

Mom just came back from the US...

My sis just called and she was crying. I felt so sad and broken-hearted to hear that. She couldn't sleep for the whole night due to my mom's emotion explosion next room! Dad was again suffering from her lost of control in everything for the whole night, verbal abuse, physical abuse...What can he do, as usual? Tolerance! Is this called love or cowardice or innocence or fragile? She told me that she felt very painful, so was my younger bro. He said that it was intolerable because the air was filled with horror and fear. He heard my mom shout, scream and hit, mention about the "fox woman", accuse dad of losing her watch and earrings...Maybe all these are just her excuses or tactful tricks to shift our attention from her losing of money in gambling in the US. (Why not? It happens all the time!) I understand exactly how they felt because it was my usual daily experience when I was living in that house! I really don't want to see them suffer, to be frank, though my mom is the one who abuses, she also suffers. (Sometimes, I hate to be sympathetic...after all, who sympathizes us? This is the saying I often get from counsellors when they can do nothing to help! "remember, you mom is also a victim, forgive her!") We are all victims! I don't want to be one, I hate to be one. We all don't want to be ones!

I felt so angry that I really wanted to shout out loud, so loud that God could hear it! Can YOU hear me? Why my mom is like that? Why my dad always has to be abused and be the victim? Why my mom has such threatening, selfish characters? Why my mom doesn't face her own problems? Why God doesn't help? Can YOU hear me,? Can YOU help me? Can YOU help??? I feel so frustrated, worried and frightened that one day, my dad would burst into real anger...

I was anxious about my sis' situation and I called the praying heart hotline yesterday morning to seek help. I spent for, let say, nearly half an hour. It was indeed a kind of struggle and torture for me to recall all the bad, horrible experiences related to mom, but I did, hoping that the woman on the other side of the phone could really help. In the end, I felt a bit exhausted and insecure and ridiculous when she asked me whether I am a Christian, of course I am! Then, she told me that I should try my best to help my sister and pray for her, with her. Of course I did, I AM DOING SO, I will and I always do so! At last, she told me that there is no use for me to call her, it must be my sis to take the initiative to make the call for help so that they can arrange for a counselling session for her later, "but mind you, you have to wait for at least 6 weeks! Is that OK?" "SHIT!!!" I just felt so angry that I really want to scold her, but I didn't because there was no use in doing it! (I had already wasted my time and energy and hope!!! Why not saving them! ) Can you imagine? THIS IS CALLED HELP!

After the call from my sis and bro tonight, I called another hotline (和諧之家男士熱線) with desperate hope. The man didn't disappoint me, he did more or less the same thing as the woman did yesterday. He asked me lots of questions and details, but in the end, he still said that dad should call instead of me!!! He asked me to leave my phone number and name for reference. The last question he asked was how old I am! What?! He is called Mr Tsui! What a good helper! How come I've never learnt a lesson? Should I continue to waste my time? Why can't I learn to be more practical and cleverer? Should I trust that they are professionals who can really help us with life and death matters? No, I would seek every chance calling and asking for ways to help no matter what. I want a happy, healthy family. I want my famiily to be happy and healthy! I shouldn't give up. After all, I am in a better situation now than years ago, a girl who was fragile and desperate!

PLease send my family angels because we really need your blessings

Dear Lord Dad

You know my feelings, you know how I suffered under my mom's tyranny, endless verbal abuse and physical abuse, you know how hard I try to forgive my mom and love her because of your love, you know how much I want to be healed and be myself again, you know how much I want my parents to have good relationship, you know how much I care about my family, you know how much I want my mom to stop abusing us especially my dad, you know how much I want my mom to stop gambling, the money that earned by dad and brother with toil and sweat, you know how much I want my family to be happy and free of threatening and worries, you know how very much I want my mom to get healed, you know how much I want my little sister to love herself and be real strong again...YOU all know it and I know YOU would tell me to be patient beacuse YOU have your own time, I know and you know, I want to have a happy family...Amen.

Gali

please have mercy and grant my wishes...

Dear Lord Father,

Here is a wish list for my beloved ones:

• Please forgive all our sins that we don't have enough love towards YOU


• Please let my dad, mom and 2 brothers know you and taste your endless love


• Please let my mom be healed


• Please grant us peace, love and health


• Please take away my mom's devil selfish mind and sense of insecurity


• Please let my younger brother have energy, confidence and hope towards life again


• Please heal my youngest sister and let her have your vision to see life, work and love


• Please grant me hope and confidence towards life and work


• Please heal my husband and my younger brother's spines and lumbars


• Please protect my whole family from danger and deliver us from evil


• Plese grant me wisdom so that I can finish my MA course with sense of achievement...

Thank you for listening:)

Amen

Hot Pot Hohoho

Wow, what a release! I've just finished all my presentations despite the fact that there are still three more papers to come!

Well, Dad had it twice drove to Tai Po instead of CUHK directly! Why? What happened to him? Here is the answer: Tonight, we all went to have hot pot in San Kwong Fat, Shatin together, including me, dad, my handsome younger brother and my lovely younger sister. Mom called suddenly because she had dreamt about dad with the fox woman! Again! Dad started to feel frustrated and uneasy and of course, he asked my brother to claimed him innocence as he is always by my brother's side within a few feet! Can you imagine? After that call, the topic moved on to the costly IDD that mom made in the past and last night's sudden call. Well, last night, mom called from the US in the middle of the night and dad had to wake up quickly to answer the phone call and to entertain her. Actually, the longest call lasted for 4 hours according to Father's King Chou Record but last night, it was just a short period of time and then it was brother's turn because mom would like to clarify the cheque problems with him, luckily it lasted only for 15 minutes. But, what is the result/consequences? Today, dad looked a bit miserable and brother looked really tired. He had to sleep on the chair of the van for a nap in the afternoon. Hm...I understand now, no wonder!

Anyway, I still enjoy eating dinner with my family and it's nice having hot pot sometimes though it's not very healthy. A simple dinner w/ precious family time, that's call life! Thank God!

A song to Lord God

May the Lord show us his mercy
May the Lord take the lead
May the Lord grant us our wishes
May the Lord forgive our sin

They do hop!

Wow, what a night! I just couldn't help joining the rest of the audience to dance together. The last time was in Leslie's 2001 concert. The atmosphere was really great! It was so great that even the old lady sitting next to me also moved along and danced, wow!

It was my first time to watch Grasshoppers' concert and I think it's brilliant. They do hop! They hop high and well. They have enthusiasm, no guest singers but themselves only. They danced and sang throughout the whole concert and the presentation of the whole thing is just wonderful! Almost 95% of the songs are the songs of our teenage time and they just brought us back to the good old days! Thank grasshoppers. I can't believe that they are still as energetic as they were before. Next year would be their 25th anniversary; I cannot think of other reasons but passion for them to continue to sing and dance. I really appreciate their effort made. Of course "Lonely" is the song I enjoy most!

Thank God that I could really forget everything and enjoyed this big party with my honey husband. By the way, it was him who bought the tickets:>

Just to remind myself that next time, don't buy the RED section (range from 42-49) in the Coliseum because you will not be able to see the big screen but a giant string hanging in front of you blocking your view, remember!

Lamlam's devolution theory 退化論

Why man always thinks about evolution, why not devolution? Look at this world, a fallen one, things are falling apart and it is so hard for us to live happily and safely on earth. I always think that long time ago, there were a group of people who found it so harsh to live in this world, which is full of pain, killings, discrimination, deception, troubles, worries, poverty, exploitation, pollution, diseases, miseries and so on, that they no longer could tolerate, in the end, they just escaped from reality and went back to live in the wild and turned themselves into animals and lived like animals. God created man but because of the harsh reality, man turned themselves into baboons狒狒, chimpanzee黑猩猩, gorillas大猩猩, orangutans猩猩 and monkeys猴子 so that they no longer had to think nor worry about anything with their conscious minds. This is what I call, devolution or galilamlam's devolution theory. Haha:P

In short, the ancestors of baboons, chimpanzee, gorillas, orangutans ad monkeys are us, human beings. If you wonder why there are so many species, I can only explain two. All the bold men turned themselves into baboons; and all those who hated to look at this world with their usual ways permitted themselves to grow a tail and became monkeys so that they could look at the world from an upside-down angle in order to feel better. They would say, "We'd prefer eating bananas every day and enjoying our lives on the trees to living in this hell-like world!"

If you ask me which animal I'd prefer to regress myself, I'd choose to become a vegetarian eagle which can soar in the sky.

* pic taken fromhttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Darwin

In memory of Leslie

At the moment of Leslie leaving us, I was playing badminton at the Police Recreation Club. Later, I heard the radio news reporter saying something that was hard to believe but had to! It was a full stop to one's life and a huge exclamation mark to all of us!

He was the first real idol that would make me crazy, but just a bit! We were still F.1 at that time and we needed to do something for the Xmas talent show. There should be six of us, good friends at that time, innocent but dare to show our real selves, when we performed one of his famous, popular songs, "Don't want to sleep (無心睡眠)". Let me see, it should be me, Maria, Miriam, Kitty, Fiona and who else? Would that be Carol? Just can't remember! We were so familiar with all the gestures used in the song and of course the song itself! In the end, we were, of course, not regarded as "talented" in this talent show but "rebellious" instead, I guess! It was supposed to have one performance from each class, but we had two because we couldn't tolerate the idea of singing "the Greatest Love of all" on stage. I remember for the rest of the class, they sang this song and, for sure, they were just like the very traditional, obedient, delicated, little roses in the eyes of all the teachers! I was proud not to be one, I was, guess what, a wild one, a more beautiful, colourful but tough one! (But it paid!)

The rent for my house in THA was just $100 a month and I would spend about $200 for a ticket of his concert, can you imagine? It was the idea of Dora. To my surprise, I found fans around me were crazier that they really needed to take pills! Were we still F.1 students? It was my first time to go for a concert. I got very excited and took lots of pics of him though I still wondered why he crept on the floor in his very tight swimming suit for a whole song!

The second concert was in 2001. I remember I went with Maria and who else? I couldn't believe the long-haired man was the one that I had loved before! Anyway, I was impressed by his song "Me" (我). Later, I understood why and what had happened to him.

He had a beautiful soul and wouldn't dare to hurt others but unfortunately, himself. He was the one and only who had such charisma on stage. He was gifted and real "talented".

I've learnt that we have to be consistent in and out and shouldn't hide the real me for long. I should voice out what I want and who I am. I should defend for myself with thorns whenever it's necessary!

Blowing my baby bloom balloon

It's kind of sarcasm when you hear about casual abortion by naive teenage girls. Where on earth can we find boundaries? Where on earth can we find commitment and responsibility? Where on earth can we build up more healthy families so that there are less tragedies?! Nevertheless, these girls may be victims themselves.

Those who long for babies would suffer from miscarriage, be forced to abort, wait for long...

My dear Lord God, may YOU grant the wishes of all the women who really want to be mothers, good, responsible mothers. May you have mercy on me so that I can be a mother one day, a beautiful, caring, lovely mother with lovable children. Thank YOU for listening. Amen.

lost n found

I think I must be a lovely child with a curious mind. I always toddled around to investigate and discover the world. One day, I walked to a police station and a policeman picked me up and asked me where I lived. I didn't answer him. as I looked so pretty, the policeman couldn't help bringing me inside the station and introduced this little lovely girl to other officers. They played with me while waiting for a worrying mom who had lost her child hurrying to the police station. In the end, mom came and found me.

The blue sky

The first memory in my life was when I was sitting at the front door of a hut where my parents and I lived in Wong Tai Sin. I was alone and the door of the house was open. The sky was blue and everything was peaceful except the running of my tears. I sobbed and tried to eat my bowl of plain rice, with some soup. I just could not eat it. It's not tasty at all. I had a mouthful of rice and I just kept the rice in my mouth until it turned into congee inside. I guess, I was about 1 or 2 years old. The space was vast and I was very small. I still remember, the first memory of the sky in my mind was blue, cool bluish blue:)