Wow, yesterday morning, honey booked a delux room with seaview at Gold Coast Hotel in Tuen Mun and my impression towards Tuen Mun has changed totally.
It's an inevitable fact that both honey and I are too serious in life, we don't know how to play and relax. But frankly, we'd love to learn. It's a good start yesterday bcause honey took the initiative to make ourselves a relaxing holiday. We didn't join the 7.1 parade. We supported it deep in our hearts. Instead, we stayed in the hotel and tried to enjoy everything.
The room is big and has a stunning view and a giant balcony. Wow, when you step out on the balcony, you see a vast blue sky and beautiful sea. We saw planes flying over Lantau as well. It;s so comfortable. Sky in Kowloon is limited and blocked!!! I hate that! It has been such a long time that i really enjoy and relax. Thank God and I love you honeycheung. Thanks for the arrangement. We also went to the swimming pool and had a swim there. Of course honey could not swim at the moment, but it's cool to stay in the water and had sunbathing. I just wonder, why do we have to fly such a long way to Samui Island when you can find one in Hong Kong. Of course, the food in Thailand is cheaper. But when honey needs enough rest before heading for any journey abroad, Gold Coast is a wonderful choice.
This morning, I woke up quite early at 8.30. I just wanted to stroll around the area. Though I'd love to walk to the Gold Dolphin Square, I didn't because it's too far away under the bright, hot sun. Anyway, I went back to the shopping mall we visited last night. When I arrived, I saw something wonderful. It was a fish jumping out of the water again and again. It's just like flying. Wow!!! It's amazing! What a lovely scene. Then, a man, looks like a Pakistan, came to me and asked me what time it was. I told him the time in English and he spoke in his own langauge that I don't know. However, it seemed that I could understand him, I showed him my mobile phone clock. He's happy and went back to the bench chair to enjoy the morning sun. Later, he shouted and signalled me to sit beside him. I just smiled back and moving my head to tell me that no need. (Though he's friendly, it's still dangerous in sit beside somebody who is a total stranger to you when there's nobody around.) Everything seems so tranquil. Thank God for your creation. I've just found that Tuen Mun is not a bad place. Gold Coast is bravo! Then, I went to Cha Chan Tang and 7-11 to buy honey his favouite breakfast and newspapers respectively. I walked back to the hotel with a happy heart after that.
Hm...what a nice holiday!
2009年7月2日 星期四
2009年7月1日 星期三
My childhood
I just cried when I heard this song...
Childhood--Michael Jackson
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...
People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...
Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...
Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had
Have you seen my Childhood...
It's a touching song. Lucky that I viewed the 60 mins on youtube and found that MJ wrote this song that reflects the very bottom feelings of his heart. He's such a poor kid who yearns for love. The DJ's right. He's home now. He's now in the arms of Jesus who will compensate what he didn't have on earth: parental love, acceptance and respect from the media. He must be very tired and exhausted. God, may you love him and let him have peace in your love...Amen.
Lucky that I have a happy childhood. I still have lots of happy memories to taste. Thank God that ka chun can share most with me.
MJ has such a beautiful, "childlike", angel voice. Would it be a gift from God to compensate him for the lost of his childhood?
Childhood--Michael Jackson
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...
People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...
Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...
Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had
Have you seen my Childhood...
It's a touching song. Lucky that I viewed the 60 mins on youtube and found that MJ wrote this song that reflects the very bottom feelings of his heart. He's such a poor kid who yearns for love. The DJ's right. He's home now. He's now in the arms of Jesus who will compensate what he didn't have on earth: parental love, acceptance and respect from the media. He must be very tired and exhausted. God, may you love him and let him have peace in your love...Amen.
Lucky that I have a happy childhood. I still have lots of happy memories to taste. Thank God that ka chun can share most with me.
MJ has such a beautiful, "childlike", angel voice. Would it be a gift from God to compensate him for the lost of his childhood?
I hate you
快樂往往不是來自擁有得多,而是計較得少.
Happiness is not to own a lot but do not haggle over too much.
你當倚靠耶和華而行善, 住在地上, 以他的信實為糧. 詩37:7
Trust in Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Psalms 37:3
Clara recently has started to send me scripts every day...The verse I received today is reminding me something. Yeah, I'm an unhappy person for too many years since 13 years old. I want to stop and be a happy person, I just don't know how. Whenever I think of mom & dad, I panick and feel worried. When I look at my younger bro and sis, I can feel the weigh on my shoulders. They have to grow up, be practical, independant and responsible for their own lives. So do I. I have to let go. There is no point in wasting time in being depressed. Do I choose it? I just feel that I am losing hope and energy in life.
Today, I felt nervous to meet Grace again coz I didn't want to mention about all the unhappy things happened in the past few months. The most painful fact is that I seem to learn nothing?! I haven't grown up at all. Health seems to deterioate, husband's lumbar problem, staying in hospital for weeks, helping husband to ease the pain by massages though I feel tired sometimes, losing my baby again...Grace seems to gain a lot. I really envy! I'm tired of everything. I don't want to pray and don't know how to pray...I'm tired of hearing Grace mention about how God gives her answers, how grateful she is in life...I start to feel sick of it! I just don't want to meet her anymore. I feel like crying today the feeling of helplssness comes back and I realize I have no one to talk to. I feel very lonely. I have talked to YOU, but so what!
But I'm contradicting. I know I have nothing if I leave YOU, I know I'm weak now. What should I do??? It's frustrating to think about what I should do in the future. I have no confidence and direction at all. It seems to me that I have no more mission in teaching. I really hate that! I'm tired of being ill-treated by this profession. I hate Coconut. I worked so hard to be a good, responsible teacher but she always find faults and play office politics on nice teachers. I hate the NP2C principal, she told lies and made me a supply teacher and lose the providant fund. She made use of me to take up another class so that she could save money for hiring a supply teacher. She burnt me out for teaching 3 full classes English, drama and geography. I hate myself for not knowing how to confront with people. I hate principal Cheng for trusting students instead of recognising my effort made there. I hate myself for losing confidence in teaching that F.3 class. I hate Mrs Leung for pushing me to teach 3B that year and I was burn-out because of all these! I hate my mom for her torturing us mentally, emotionally and physically. I hate my dad for being cowardice in protecting himself and us and spoiling mom. I HATE all these DAMN things!!!I hate myself for losing hope in life...
Happiness is not to own a lot but do not haggle over too much.
你當倚靠耶和華而行善, 住在地上, 以他的信實為糧. 詩37:7
Trust in Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Psalms 37:3
Clara recently has started to send me scripts every day...The verse I received today is reminding me something. Yeah, I'm an unhappy person for too many years since 13 years old. I want to stop and be a happy person, I just don't know how. Whenever I think of mom & dad, I panick and feel worried. When I look at my younger bro and sis, I can feel the weigh on my shoulders. They have to grow up, be practical, independant and responsible for their own lives. So do I. I have to let go. There is no point in wasting time in being depressed. Do I choose it? I just feel that I am losing hope and energy in life.
Today, I felt nervous to meet Grace again coz I didn't want to mention about all the unhappy things happened in the past few months. The most painful fact is that I seem to learn nothing?! I haven't grown up at all. Health seems to deterioate, husband's lumbar problem, staying in hospital for weeks, helping husband to ease the pain by massages though I feel tired sometimes, losing my baby again...Grace seems to gain a lot. I really envy! I'm tired of everything. I don't want to pray and don't know how to pray...I'm tired of hearing Grace mention about how God gives her answers, how grateful she is in life...I start to feel sick of it! I just don't want to meet her anymore. I feel like crying today the feeling of helplssness comes back and I realize I have no one to talk to. I feel very lonely. I have talked to YOU, but so what!
But I'm contradicting. I know I have nothing if I leave YOU, I know I'm weak now. What should I do??? It's frustrating to think about what I should do in the future. I have no confidence and direction at all. It seems to me that I have no more mission in teaching. I really hate that! I'm tired of being ill-treated by this profession. I hate Coconut. I worked so hard to be a good, responsible teacher but she always find faults and play office politics on nice teachers. I hate the NP2C principal, she told lies and made me a supply teacher and lose the providant fund. She made use of me to take up another class so that she could save money for hiring a supply teacher. She burnt me out for teaching 3 full classes English, drama and geography. I hate myself for not knowing how to confront with people. I hate principal Cheng for trusting students instead of recognising my effort made there. I hate myself for losing confidence in teaching that F.3 class. I hate Mrs Leung for pushing me to teach 3B that year and I was burn-out because of all these! I hate my mom for her torturing us mentally, emotionally and physically. I hate my dad for being cowardice in protecting himself and us and spoiling mom. I HATE all these DAMN things!!!I hate myself for losing hope in life...
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